HAHAHAHAHA! (huhuhu?)

why, almost all the bloggers i have bumped into the last 2 hours says they're depressed? depressed depressed depressed. puro na lang depressed. ano bang meron? national depression month?bakit ba? nakakahawa naman kayo...is it the weatheR? the economy? is it Gloria? (most probably) or is it just me? or is it me or is it me? well can't they stop themselves from being depressed (pano kaya yun?) coz it won't do them any good (ows?). depression is a psychological disorder, something na kulang ka nang dopamine ba yun? or basta... i forgot. just don't try to take anti-depressants my advice, it wouldn't do any one or anything any good. promise. i see people who are so depressed that they can't stop and think of a better and lively topic to write because their mind, for the last 24 hours has been busy trying to do the impossible? that is, trying to get over a problem by thinking about it all day long. i don't like people who feel like they have a so galactic of a problem that they can't think of anything else but how to look at the problem and look at the problem and look at the problem... from a million kazillion direction. it's like playing a rubix cube, breaking your brain, when all the sides have the same color. i don't like people who pitty themselves too much they cannot see what they don't want to see and what they have to see at the same time..., they loose the ability to see the whole picture from afar because they are too busy drawing a new picture on ground to consciously try to decieve themselves. i don't like people who are so depressed that i can actually smell the stench of repressed anxieties when i try to come too close. i see people who are depressed and does everyhing humanly possible jsut so that others wouldn't notice that they are... which is a really dumb idea because no matter what one does, it always shows and it will always show and it will. and it will...... but that dumb idea is the only thing one can do and try. so let them be. other people don't want to be around negative people. then if that's the case, i think negative people doesn't want to be around them as well. i dont like being around with a depressed person coz it makes me feel uneasy. but i really appreciate it if the person understands me when i start to walk away, or i start to quiet myself. but i really feel for a person when he does his best to try to higher that tonal voice just a little bit jsut to make the conversation sound livelier and not so monotonic (tama ba to?) . just to make the tone more upbeat, and make the talk more interesting though he/she is thinking of something else and what he/she is saying does not interest him at all. and i understand how damn hard it is but i feel for him/her. bottomline is i feel the need to be around depressed and negative people, it's just so hard to maintain a conversation because they sometimes get lost in a conversation, and they sometimes don't seem to enjoy a conversation though i know they pretty much are enjoying the company because they badly need the talk. it's the wrong signals that hinder people from understanding each other. communication is 80 percent body language( tama ba?) and i know the struggle in trying to make things loook happy when the truth is everything's not. and so sometimes i try as much as possible to spend time with the most depressed persons i can come across with... pakshit. sinong niloloko ko? im spending the next few days with me.